3 Important Steps Towards Becoming Mentally Healthy Changing my mindset to heal depression and ease the wounds of abuse

The 3 most important steps that helped me on my journey of healing and wholeness:

  1. Self-Love First – If you were not loved by  your parents, family or carers, you need to learn to love yourself. It may seem selfish to be doing things what you like and want. That is okay. You need to feel loved, tfeel special and feel cherished. You need to believe that you are important and matter.  You come first particularly if you have a history of abuse, neglect and  rejection.  You need to build up your self esteem through self-care and self-love.  The Christian concept of selfless love for others is all nonsense if one  is empty inside. When you were not given loving care as a child, you have nothing to give. You need to  fill up the cup to have something to pour out. Don’t feel guilty of filling the hole in your heart  even it takes  the rest of your life.

Listen to these guided meditation to help fill yourself with that loving feeling –
Discovering Love
Loving Self Compassion

2. Don’t Take Anything Personally- This is the second agreement of Don Miguel’s The Four Agreements . Nothing someone does is because of you. What someone says and does is a projection of their own reality. If they treat you badly it is because of they are relieving themselves of their own pain and you just happen to be a convenient receptacle for their rage.  When you are immune to the opinions and actions  of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering.  I wish someone had told me this. What unnecessary suffering  I would have spared myself if I had known this.  I spent most of my life thinking that I am responsible for how people treated me. I strove to mold myself into someone who would  meet the standards of others. Becoming a caricature of what I was meant to be. Always pleasing  and bending backwards thinking that I am responsible and capable of changing the behavior of my abusive father and my rejecting family. I wish I had known that  the conduct  of someone else has nothing to do with me but rather it is a projection of their own trauma history.

3. Not turning the other cheek but turning on your heel – Growing up Christian, the concept of forgiving my enemies was a part of my mindset for most of my life, which contributed to me ending up with depression, shame, suppressed rage and a distorted sense of self.  Now, after a lot of self analysis I have concluded that forgiveness is wrong when the guilty party does not acknowledge his wrongdoings and are not truly repentant. If God wanted forgiveness to be given that easily why were Adam and Eve permanently banished from the garden of Eden when  they ate the apple and disobeyed God. Unless  the evil perpetrator atones and compensates the victim for the hurts and crimes committed, there is no forgiveness.   Pardon has to come with a price tag, we owe it to ourselves to  give value to ourselves.  When we keep forgiving the wrong-doer, he automatically presumes that he is right and the victim is wrong.  Trying to follow this stupid idea nearly destroyed me emotionally. I no longer call myself a Christian because i don’t believe that  forgiveness  is needed for getting on with my life. No, the term letting go, cutting the cords and  leaving behind that what hurts us is the way to healing. To move on to a better life we need to let go of the past. We don’t need forgiveness.

“I’ve lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they’re always the same
They mean me no harm but it’s time that I face it
They’ll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don’t belong
I’m movin’ on”

As a parent I tell my son  to reject and run from evil and hurtful people.You have to protect  yourself. You owe it to yourself. Your mental wellness is up to you, to take the steps to self-care. To love yourself, not feel responsible for the evil actions of others. Turn your back on what or whoever is pulling you down. Believe that there is a better world out there.

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