As I get stronger emotionally, I no longer feel ashamed of my feelings and emotions. Parts which were hidden from my consciousness slowly come to the surface. I can now understand many of my past crazy actions. They were the only way to counter my chaotic inner self.
Like a watcher in a movie, I see my past with a new understanding. No longer do I feel the intensity of rage, anger, shame or remorse. It feels like my lost soul is slowly integrating the missing parts and becoming whole. I don’t feel that I have to validate my actions with someone else’s approval.
Modern medicine fails to honor the spiritual and emotional aspects of healing. The focus is on healing the symptom rather than the underlying cause. Our spirits get wounded and destroyed which invariably leads to emotional depression and subsequently physical disease
Hole In My Aura
The first time I felt psychically vulnerable was soon after my mother died. The first day of school post her death I felt so naked, being watched by the other girls. I was now a broken piece, something was wrong to me. At that time I did not know anything about auras and how trauma can create a hole in our auric body. As more and more trauma was heaped on me, the bigger and bigger the hole became. The only way to survive the onslaught of abuse was to shut down emotionally. My soul was no longer a part of my body. I felt disembodied
My Fleeing Soul
In her book, Soul Retrieval: Mending the Fragmented Self Sandra Ingerman describes soul loss as “spiritual illness” that causes emotional and physical disease. To survive we lose crucial parts of ourselves that bring us joy and vitality.
According to Shamanic tradition, soul loss happens in response to traumatic life experiences, that results in the fragmentation of our inner, vital essence or soul. In order for the body to survive, our frightened soul flees to another plane or dissociation from reality occurs according to psychology. It is nature’s way of protecting us from suffering and pain.
Moreover, soul loss is the experience of an essential part of us leaving, and soul retrieval is the experience of having that essential part retrieved and returned to you. Many of us feel like we are missing an important part of ourselves or feel like we are not quite whole. Sometimes we experience soul loss as a chronic illness or face unremitting negative emotions such as sadness and anger.
Shamanic traditions have wonderful ceremonies that honor and help bring about the healing of the mind-body-spirit.
Cutting Cords of Attachment
The one thing that prevents us from healing from a toxic childhood is our attachments to people. However, it is crucial to understand that this attachment comes from our deep primal need to attach and connect with people Most of the time we pretend that we aren’t affected by the pain that someone close inflicts upon us. We deny the power of unseen etheric cords that bind us to negative life situations. However, the only way to get whole again is to cut the cords of our attachment. Easier said than done.
The most important aspect of healing my psychic pain was letting go of my attachments. Here sound therapy has played a vital role. Healing sounds and words work on etheric level and slowly strengthen the auric shield of our bodies. Once we feel strong emotionally, we no longer feel the pull and push of other people’s emotions.
It is so liberating to be able to walk away or stand your ground without fear of retribution.
Clearing and Shielding with Archangel Michael with Doreen Virtue
I find listening to the above meditation by Doreen Virtue helps me get a perspective of things. And not get dragged into the drama of negative people. The key to living a stress-free existence is healing our psychic self and integrate our fragmented soul parts. It’s the only way to move on.
Soul Retrieval: Mending the Fragmented Self by Sandra Ingerman